At the beginning of April our family took a trip to Portland. I have family who I’ve never met who lives in Portland. There have been a few communication attempts between our family. Emails and letters and texts and friend invites. We haven’t been able to reconnect, yet. I didn’t know the names of that family. With this visit to Portland came a renewed want to meet my entire family. Over the next few days, I wrote an email. I asked my dad for the email address and sent an email. For the next several days, I was anxious. I wanted to know if he had replied, and I checked frequently. I was constantly thinking about it. A week later came with no reply. I was super sad. I had imagined this elaborate dream in which this family member read my email and finally wanted to come back and meet me. But that hadn’t happened, at least not yet, so I continued to be sad. It affected me more than I had thought it would. It tore my main focus away from what I really needed to focus on. Finally, I decided I needed to be at peace with the silence. I prayed to my Heavenly Father to help me deal with this sadness. I prayed for help to be ok and at peace. Yes, I also prayed that this family member would respond and that he would know that I love him and his family. But I also know that Heavenly Father has a plan for us. If part of that plan was that he didn’t ever respond, I would need to be ok with that. I needed to trust my Heavenly Father. After that prayer, I’ve had peace. Every time I log into my email account, yes, I hope for a reply, but I’m also trusting in my Heavenly Father and His plan. I know that one day I’ll meet this family member, whether it’s on this Earth or in heaven in the life after death. I know that we will live forever. I know that families are forever. And that is the hope I hold onto.
Lena
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